I thought about quitting drinking for years. Discovered that "thinking" about quitting isn't a recovery plan. I had to quit. I had to take action. Then I have to find a way to stay quit. Intentions, no matter how strong, work by themselves.
That seems to be where you are at, not able to get over the hurdles of early sobriety. What actions are taking to stay quit? Are you seeking face-to-face support? A recovery program geared to alcoholics? Are you willing to?