What the heck is wrong with me?! I want to quit I have to quit and yet I still end up going and buying a bottle.
My kids aren't stupid they know when I'm standing at the fridge I'm sneaking a shot or two or three. They also know when I'm drunk and yet I tell myself I'm functioning just fine. Did it again last night.
I get to day 3 then I relapse. I feel so depressed with a load of anixeity. I feel like such a failure and can't barely look at my kids.
I have do it this time I really do. I had some of the vodka left and instead of drinking it I dumped it out. First step I suppose.
I'm better then this damn-it, so why have I and do I keep letting myself fall? I keep telling myself once my husband gets back home (18days) I will do so much better since he doesn't drink anymore and I'll have help with daily life but am I fooling myself? I hope not.
Well here it goes again, Day 1.
