No worries, HRB. I appreciate your sincerity.
It is often enough problematic when we desire to put into words for others what is also personal to ourselves. Things can become a bit off, and this is not always so easy to remedy when in the written form, like these posts, which is sometimes akin to writing in concrete, hahaha.
Conversational discussions are much more adaptive to working out common understandings, with f2f tells, voice inflections, emotional/mental attitudes, etc. all there in the open in real-time presence.
Writing has its own place of course, its just not always easy to find the exact meaning in a typed out thought when we are thinking deeply within ourselves.
Take it easy, HRB.