I dailed it directly, im not sure what happen but wow, it was very odd. Hanna hit it, it took me so effort to work up the courage to get that far and what happens , i hear him at the other end. I am going to try again tomorrow.
He doesnt even pretend to care anymore. The other times this has happen he has at least made an effort to pretend to feel bad. He would lay off drinking, at first it was for a few weeks, it slowly worked down to a few days and now it is nothing. He brought beer home tonight, not enough to get him drunk though so that makes it ok according to him. Just as it is my fault he does what he does, you know cause and effect. I keep having small flashbacks of it and instantly feel disgusted. I cant even look at him, i dont know how i am gonna ever get out of this. I want the cycle to end but i cant find the courage to do it for the life of me.