Liz, when are you going to deal with your addiction issues?
As a former spouse-a-holic it is rather easy to spot. Took me a long time to get past the denial and move on with my recovery.
But then again I didn't join this forum until after I left.
So, when are your going to put down the self righteousness and victimization and accepting what is clearly unacceptable behavior and start admitting you've got a problem and your problem is that you are addicted to him?
Nothing changes if nothing changes.
Your friend,