crazed, if YOU were truly to blame, then the minute you left all her problems would go away. you KNOW that is not true. she blames you because she can.
my mom used to get very sick from drinking (in fact it killed her) and one of her classic excuses was..........BAD ICE. yup, defective frozen water. had nothing to do with the alcohol IN the ice.
it only hurts because you still feel like this has ANYTHING to do with you.