Hi and welcome. It's interesting that we do such interesting things but don't recognize what's happening in our lives. I call it denial and after years of not drinking still have to deal with it occasionally. Congratulations on your being able to recognize your problem. I never thought I was “that bad” that I had to stop things that I liked to do. After joining AA it was pointed out to me that slippery situations probably would lead us to drink again. Being emotionally immature during that period, as so many of us are I did things my way. Guess what happened? After a period of being sick and tired suggestions were followed, it's been successful for over 30 years. For me it started with a simple prayer to a higher power, and I wasn't nor am today a religious person, to help me get sober. Haven't had a drink since that moment. Many have a negative view of AA and my response is it works if we work it and has for millions. Life is so good now as compared to the drinking days. BE WELL