My alcoholism -- or my AV -- has tried to float some pretty outlandish ideas past me. Like fantasies & dreams of drugs I've never used or seldom, and drinking in exotic situations. It seems like my alcoholism, finding the door shut, was trying to get in through the window. At first I thought they were trivial fantasies because "obviously" absurd, but when I therefore indulged them, they got stronger & more powerful. Now I'm refusing to entertain them -- mostly.
I've been doing AA because the daily live support is really accessible & the groups are fairly open-minded & diverse where I live. But I'm an atheist and am open to any techniques that will help me stay sober. Thanks for helping me think about these fantasies in a different way!