mmhoule

I have made a call to an AA chapter here. Just have to take that step to go. Im afraid. Ashamed...all that. I don't want to be one of them...you know? But...here I am. I try so hard to stay positive and focused. Its my job. I love it but alcohol is available...so if I am truly going to beat this I think the first step is to accept that I am powerless and be ok with it. Which I am NOT. Im ANGRY. At myself of course...so I am reading and posting and sharing here whenever I can. Learning from others and trying to keep hope alive. I hate the thought that I am going to have to think about staying sober daily for the rest of my life! Forgive me...I am very frustrated today.