Sharing common stories and goals is what I need right now. I still haven't made it even a day. But I've not been young it right off at work. I wait til Im almost done. Still...I don't want to AT ALL. I feel empty if I don't. Like I have forgotten something...however I LOVE LOVE LOVE how I feel in days when I hadn't drank the night before! I try to hang onto that feeling before I drink again but auto pilot kicks in. Ill pour a drink and nite even try to NITE do it. Then the next day I hate how I feel like I didn't even try. Even tho ALL DAY LONG I think about not doing it. Im so confused by my own brain!!