Ohhh. yes. the bedtime routines.
Totally relate. It seems like when the sun goes down.. the anxiety goes up and the need to drink increases.
My AH used to wake me up relentlessly. Now he lets me sleep.. but if he drinks.. he snores. He comes to bed noisily. (usually around 3 or 4 am) He will talk in his sleep if he drinks as well. The worst is when he wants to have sex and he's loaded. Seriously? I have to get up and hustle my butt off to make money. (entrepreneur.)
Nowadays... he'll be sitting at his computer. I'll go in there and say good night and give him a kiss and there's this weird anger and rage that I'm not staying up anymore "like the good ole days" when I used to party with him.
Yeah. I totally get it. Night time crazy making.
Well stated.