Almost 3 months and man oh man- wouldn't you know- the stars and planets aligned to put my AXBF and me at the same place at the same time in our not so small city. I am keeping this on the "moving on" thread because I am still moving on. I thought about calling it the "accidental relapse." I was completely taken off guard. He was clearly high on dope. But it triggered a lot of feelings and fears. He was on his way to detox of which he apparently only made it through one day before bailing out. With enough detachment, I can see how difficult it is to get and stay clean. I do still care about his wellbeing and I still pray for him. All it took was a little encounter and a hug and all of a sudden I am love drunk again. Still hungover from it 3 days later. That "accidental relapse" made me realize I have a long way to go to be in the clear. Just taking extra good care of me right now and reaching out for a push in the right direction.