Wing
Sometimes we have to move through the tunnel of the dark days mourning the past before we can emerge on the other side to a place with more light.
I am so sorry for all that you have been through but your post makes me hopeful! I hope and pray that you will be able to take care of yourself in the very special way that we all need to do in order to be happy and emotionally happy.
The fog is clearing.....there is hope.....and you're moving toward it. Keep moving forward!
gentle hugs
ke