I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. We have all been through these hard times and I know only too well the feelings of despair. We are powerless over their addcitions, we can't fix them and we can't make them stop. Only they can do that and sadly many never do. Even once on the road to recovery it is a long and painful journey, my AH just relpased after 9 months sober. He has been too rehab twice ETC. Did you make the right decision ending you're relationship... well only you can answer that question but will you're life be better without addiction well anyone can answer that one... Of course it will. It will just take time for you to recover, living with our loved ones addiciton damages us emotionally but you will find support here in this forum. I wish you all the best. Take Care of yourself.