Hello VVL....
As people have asked you over the past 2 years, "What about you?"
How are you? How are you doing? Have you found a face-to-face system of support? How is your work, your hobbies? How are your children? Have you been able to get counseling and support for them?
I am so very, very sorry to hear about all you have been through. Only you know when when you have had enough and it's time for something to change.