Feeling Low Today...
Just feeling in a "blah" kind of mood today. Really lonely, don't have friends to call. All of my "friends" are just drinking buddies. I've isolated myself over the years because of my addiction, haven't gone out into the world and found any healthy friendships.
I feel really awkward hanging out with people being sober, for years drinking and drug use has given me a false sense of self confidence, and without that I feel uncomfortable in social situations. I hope that its something I can improve on....
On the bright side, despite my mood I haven't felt like drinking or using today. Once briefly my AV popped into my head, and I shut it up. I'm angry at my AV, for creating a lonely, isolated life in which I find myself...