In an emotional dip.
I was feeling pretty good today, but then took an emotional dive. I was thinking about my family and how I am not a part of their lives any more. I guess it doesn't help that they live half way across the country. I am 76 days sober and am not going to drink. It's just not an option. I don't want to feel any worse than I am already feeling. My wish is that some day they will not look at me like some kind of mutant creature from outer space. I don't really want to fly home because there are just too many triggers there. I am feeling like I just don't have a family any more. Sucks. Tomorrow is another day. Someone was mentioning p.a.w.s and I'm there. I want to make these feelings go away but the only thing I can do now is put it out there. Love to all at SR.