Hi Dee,
I'd like to be able to enjoy it again but from what I've read so far I don't think that's an option. I don't think I can go backwards and am thinking I need to stop completely. I'm still able to have a glass of wine or two at family events without needing to binge but now I don't enjoy it because it brings memories of my drunken mindset and feelings of shame about my secret drunk side my family doesn't know about. I've also told myself many times that I would not get drunk on a weeknight but end up unable to stop before being plastered. I know I need help and am feeling I may need to stop completely.