Thanks Robby I'm reading that link now. I've never been addicted to anything except alcohol and after the battle I'm having with that I don't want to even risk another addiction. You're right, alcohol isn't the way to deal with the pain and in the end I know that drinking only relieves the pain in the very short term. Each morning after drinking I wake up and the pain is far worse than the day before, so then I have to drink again. Not a good pattern.