jerect

He still cheated even when I "put out" guess what I was giving him wasn't good enough... I can't say much though because about a year ago I stepped out of my marriage for a brief and disastrous fling.. Mostly because I was lonely and wasn't getting my intimate needs met.. By his time we were sleeping in different bedrooms and living like horrible roommates.. Still no excuse at all for what I did and I think that is one thing I still haven't forgiven myself for... It did make me realize though that my marriage was dead.. Even though I didn't realize it at the time it was the beginning of the end... I don't know why I'm even writing this post cause its so irrelevant to this thread.. That experience shows me how unhealthy I am when it comes to relationships and how I seek validation outside of myself... Ugh... That's just so sad