I read the second part of pianogirl's post a bit differently... not that the challenge is missing but that I just don't know what to do with it when it feels right or isn't messed up. I get scared and don't trust it. Waiting for the other shoe to drop. History to repeat itself. It is hard to unlearn that and just let go and enjoy. Being a relationship or relationships makes us (me) do all type of crazy **it. The whole control and fear impulse comes up every time ...sick relationship or healthy. Man, still lots of work to do...but at least I am seeing it. Smile