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Old 03-27-2013, 07:30 PM
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Originally Posted by bemyself View Post
My instants seem to be too fleeting. Much like life itself. One minute, I'm great; next minute (literally and metaphorically), I'm not. One minute, I have no - zilch, nada, zero - wish or need to drink. The next, as it were, I do. Sometimes, I do....and other times, I don't.

It's like a friggin' Zen koan to me, and I'm the sort who'll never really accept the unknowing-ness of 'how to Be, Sober', in every instance / instant.
If not drinking is dependent upon not wanting to drink, then I think that is a set-up for failure, and a confusion between you (the one who looks out for your well-being) and your AV. You probably never have a wish - and certainly never a need - to drink. Your beast always needs to drink; it just stops poking you every once in a while.

I'm having times where drinking doesn't cross my mind, but much of the time the AV is screaming for it. Fortunately for me, I'm the one in charge. Sobriety doesn't always feel good, but it's always what's best for me.
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