SK, I've been there with the airport bars, too. They've always been really tempting to me, especially when I've traveled with friends. We even got bloody mary's one morning before a flight.
My AV tells me I'm never going to have a good date again, that I'll be awkward and that its not going to be fun getting to know someone.
I'm taking one day at a time. I have to take care of myself first for now.