Thanks guys for the welcome. I am just getting started on reading the RR book today. Any pointers or things to tell myself to keep going? I appreciate your help. I just want my life back and the trust of my family. My parents have seen enough where I was sickening, stumbling drunk. I have done things while drunk that I would never, ever consciously do. I'm doing all of the reading that I can. I don't drink in public, it's pretty much just at home at night, but I want it to stop! Thanks for letting me vent.