Originally Posted by
Rrose 
I am still at the phase where being forever sober feels like a wide yawning chasm of boredom. My rational mind knows it doesn't have to be that, but that's how it feels.
Goodnight!
I could not get past the feeling of specialness that Friday had to have, and what I called "dread" when I thought of not drinking in the future.
In the end after a few months sober I came to believe that my whole emotional system had become highjacked by addiction. My emotions only served my ongoing use.
I discovered that the freedom of sobriety is a priceless gift for which I am thankful.