Snow...it really is very daunting, getting sober again. Its unfriendly, foreign, daunting, scarey.. It seems like there will never be any fun anymore. Yet, we know why we found ourselves here, on a recovery site. It wasn't because we were having so much fun anymore, was it? The thing is, at least for me, I know what lies in that bottle now that all the fun is gone from it. Self hatred, loneliness, despair, and eventually death. When I remember that, its an easy choice to try sobriety, because where I was, anything at all was better than how I was... I wasn't so worried about fun in the end, I was merely trying to stay alive..