Fini. I agree. It was as if I really needed to get off the rails in order to sober up.
A few days ago I absolutely did not want to moderate. I wanted to get drunk. I did get drunk.
Obladi, I really would rather post here than in the general newcomers' forum. I am trying to avoid triggers and having someone reply that they are "praying for me" or reciting a bible verse (even if it is in their signature) would drive me nuts and make me feel isolated.
I like talking with rational, cerebral people. Talking with like-minded people who are going through the same thing is crucial for me now.