So far, I've only read what's on the Rational Recovery website, and many of the erudite posts here, of course. I, too, am finding it a HUGE relief now that I know I don't actually want to drink, it is just my senseless pleausure-seeking amygdala with no ability to grasp the concept of "consequence". This has freed me from the endless, frustrating, depressing cycle of self-analysis and self-hatred that I have been mired in for YEARS. Searching for purportedly-causative flaws presupposes that you have several, several severe flaws. The only real conclusion I reached was that, on balance, I was a rather despicable person, and a drunk to boot. Now that I'm not sitting around thinking my drinking problem is due to me being an inherently "bad" person, I feel a weight has been lifted.