Welcome to SR!
I'm not one for tapering down, but then this is your first post, so you're sure to get opinions with tapering down, you don't need mine right now.
Shame can be unwanted baggage if you'll just let it go, although words are easy, I know. I felt shame too initially, and the sooner we let it go replaced with humility and gratitude, we do much better with ourselves.
Living in the present is awesome of course, and you'll be much surprised when you reach a tipping-point and it all becomes just so easy and obvious.
I'm looking forward to hearing more from you, 1stthingsfirst.
Best!