Well, as interesting as this conversation has become I am glad to say that horrible feeling of indifference to everything has gone away. My brain is playing tricks on me and my beast is quite active again. It started up terribly yesterday and really didn't let up. I am not going to lie and say I wasn't worried because I really was. I felt like going and buying liquor. Instead I stuck with it and took a hot bath followed by a nice dinner. Still felt very "out of it" but, didnt drink so thats what matters. Stressed out today..... Thanks for all your responses, Jess