Originally Posted by
jkb 
It is so relevant and true Soberlicious... it just seems it was easier to have those memories to fall back on. Early sobriety is just hard.....
Yes, "forgetting" is one of the AVRT "ideas or perks" if you will, which I don't subscribe too. My choice. I remember enough pain for a lifetime, and I'm grateful for those memories. Its not like a resentment, its not a hateful re-experiencing. There were times I was concerned my present anger would reveal earlier hidden hate, or even create hatred from unresolved issues, but I was wrong, my love for living sober and free allows me to examine and embrace again and again my past hurts and pains with compassion, and yes, sometimes anger too.
I'm sorry you're feeling a perhaps bit lost over this Jess. I wanted you to know that it is possible to remember plenty, and too of course stay happily sober/non-drinker. I guess it's just a matter of personal choice for any of us.
Be well, Jess. Take it easy, and be good to yourself.