Wilting, I spent a good number of years feeling the same way you describe, not all of the time but so much of the time that it felt like it was all the time. It's agonizing, I know.
Right now, I'm just sick of making myself sick from drinking. It's ridiculous that any person would do this to themselves, but here we are, eh?
I think you are right that if you quit drinking you will get there and I believe the same for myself.