Originally Posted by
ReadyAndAble 
Which part? Thinking I might never escape? Checking my eyes for signs of jaundice? Knowing I was failing to meet my responsibilities as a father? Feeling my whole life was a sham? Feeling like a fake human being?
Nah. I'd rather focus on the present, and how grateful I am those days are behind me.
Please read my last request again. I'm not asking you to report anything about while you were under the influence.
What were you thinking and feeling at the very moment you started swallowing ethanol after the first "quit drinking "forever"" plan?