Yes, you do need to reach out and start going to meetings. I avoided that for years and COULD NOT beat it by myself. The first step of the 12 step program is to "admit that we are powerless over our addiction by ourselfs".
Please. Search out 2-3 meetings in your area and start going to them. Through meetings you meet new freinds who "fight the same fight". Things will start turning around for you. I am 116 days today and never could have done it without meetings.
God Bless!