As I start to think about going home, my "OCD" about my home is really kicking in. The clean lady is coming on Thursday so I should be more relaxed but I am not. I even gave her a few extras to do and I never do that.
I keep thinking of all the things I need to do when I get home. Bath dogs, pay bills, unpack, laundry, etc. And I know it's hard to enjoy today when I am needlessly anxious about tomorrow.
I try to talk to myself about living for today, being in the now, be anxious for nothing...but I still feel anxious! I know that my need for "things" to be in order and clean is about my control issues. I just don't know how to stop it. I can not control my need to control! Ughhhh!!