Wow it's crazy ... I wasn't sure why I would get these anxiety episode after drinking the next day. I feel better to know that I was not alone.
I stay inside until I felt better: I almost went to the emergency once because I wanted to end it all but I didn't anyways. I ended up here because I had no idea how to help myself. I am now reading the big book and learning that I am powerless over this otherwise I would have fixed it by myself a long time ago.