Thanks Robby,
I have only figured out one way to know if it is me or my beast who is feeling whatever at the time. If I feel depressed, angry etc... (like I was) and then I really think about getting drunk and poof all better... its my beast.
That said I think you made an excellent point on your thread... I need to deal with the wanting to drink without getting all "bent out of shape". :rotfxko