Originally Posted by
jkb 
I am starting to see that it is using my emotions now.... not just my thoughts which were easier to monitor. Where as before I was seeing this "new depression" as a result of sobriey... I am now seeing it as my beast fighting for its life.
My Beast initially used and abused my feelings and emotions without shame for IT's own cause, and I quickly discovered my difficulty in separating my feelings too. For me, the thoughts and 'thinkings' are all too obvious... separating IT's feelings and mine.... not so easy for me.
Eventually though, I learned what is what, and certainly now I rule and my stupid Beast drools, hahaha.
Awesome you're taking the time jkb, and making the effort, to get your own practice of AVRT locked down for YOU.