Markinsf-
I know that you are right about it not being tatooed on my forehead however, I am in a pretty tin little community and when i did attend meetings I tended to see the same people over and over... Deep down I know that they could care less how I am keeping sober and what not... My fear is the sponsor question. I don't intend to get a sponsor right now or work steps. However, I need to go to the meetings. I need interaction with other alcoholics.
I will be fully honest and say that at days sober I am becoming bitter that I can no longer drink. I am thinking that maybe just one binge wont hurt... all AV which I see but, if I dont get out and hang around some other alcoholics then I am going to be "that miserable sober person" or "that drunk chick". Neither appeals.
When I did work AA for awhile we had a gut who used to just come to meetings.. he called it poaching meetings. I think I will become a "meeting poacher"...lol.
jkb