11 weeks sober...I am so grateful for this
Today I am 79 days without a drink.
Slowly but surely time is passing and I am changing how I live...
I'm not saying its easy, because it isn't! I miss the escape, the buzz, the anticipation of chilling out with a glass in hand. I find it very difficult at times dealing with stress and loneliness without the crutch of alcohol.
Life is quieter socially as I mind my sobriety. But life is fundamentally better without the obsession, the guilt and self-criticism.
Every time I drank I felt so weak and hopeless... I posted here for months without any real change in my drinking.
Until now, and its now that counts. With each day that passes I feel blessed despite the usual problems of money, parenting, work etc etc. Without drink I have the best possible chance for happiness. With drink I have nothing because drink will always steal my life for itself and spit me out without remorse.Even writing that gives me the creeps! It is so very powerful, but accepting its power frees me to follow a better way of life.
Anyone who is struggling...never ever give up on having the life you truly deserve xx