Natsy

I went on a website and met a man. He is married just like me. I've only been with one man sexually. I stand behind my beliefs that I don't need to use myself to get anything. I also stand true to the fact that I gave myself solely to one man. The man I met has a wife. I'm a wife. I hate cheaters. He is living in an emotionless marriage. His wife is distant. His wife hates him. I'm living in an emotionless marriage. My husband hates me. My husband is distant.
Him and I became friends. His emails make me smile. I agreed to meet him for a drink. He is nothing like my husband, but he makes me laugh. I haven't laughed in so long. I hate myself for thinking that I want this man to touch me. I want him to hunger for me. I closed my email account and cleared my head.

My husband has pushed me to this point. He has made me seek emotion and passion.

I will stand true to my husband. I just wish he would stand true to me.