wow, I'm sorry for all of the hurtful things he said to you! I just scoffed (that's a weird word lol) at all of those statements. Seriously, you reuined his life? And his mothers? Ridiculous. I am so glad that you are putting your foot down. He is clearly very deep in his addiction and can't see the reality of the situation. None of this is your fault...I mean you each played a part, maybe you could've left earlier or something? I don't know... but there is nothing you could've done differently to help him. This is alllll on him. I so admire your courage and strength, considering the six kids and money issues. I am glad that you are doing so much work on yourself such as the meetings and readings you've been doing. Keep that up.
I'm sorry I didn't have much "advice" or anything to give, i just wanted to say....Go you!!!
Hang in there, pray to your HP daily, and know that you are such a strong person...you will get through this!