Sometimes that sadness wakes me up at night. It just doesn't make sense for us, maybe. You know, we are doing what we need to do to recover. So if we follow the guidelines and detach with kindness and all, why don't they wake up already?! How can they stay behind in that muck of a life they are choosing...over us?!
At least that is how I see it. And can't help but see that the children and I deserve better - so we should have better! He should see that and recover already! I really can't believe how STBXAH is just allowing us to stay across the ocean and isn't fighting for his own recovery so he can have us back.
I am sorry for your sadness. Things aren't supposed to be this way, are they? But at least we have ourselves, our lives, our peace.