Someone above said that "your reputation will be ruined BEFORE" if you don't get help, and that is very very true.
I went to treatment, but my reputation and job were gone by then. I'd have gone sooner if I knew that now. I'm happy with my road ahead, so maybe I was one of those people that needed to hit rock bottom. Sounds like you're in a pretty bad place too and could do with some treatment. I'd recommend it, just speaking from my experience.
It shows you are taking it seriously, it's to be respected. You are not going to let this disease take you down - and my hunch is that you know it will if you don't do this. Treatment really, really saved me. I talked my way around it for a while but my family stood firm and told me they loved me and they would not let me walk away from it.
Good luck, I hope you go.