All very true comments. I appriciate the thoughtfulness. To make a long story short, I work in a kitchen that is shared by a couple other groups. When I came in this morning I saw that someone had unplugged the roaster I was using for todays meal. The meat was ruined and had to scramble to find an alternative meal for 70 people. Super stressfull. I actually already feel a little better after venting on here. I honestly owe a lot of my progress to SR. Thanks to everyone who listens and shares encouragment.