On a Forked Road
Today I'm quitting not because I've ruined my life, hurt people or even myself. I'm quitting because I see 2 ways my life can go and it's time to choose the road I want to travel. Do I want to be a person repeating the same cycles over and over never moving above and beyond where I am now? No. I want to choose the path that will lead me to the world I've always dreamed of. I want to travel, do things with family, meet new people and have new experiences. In order to do this I have to work for it. I have a career that will take me to my dreams but I have to work hard not just do the bare minimum to get by financially. When I'm sober I work alot and I get things accomplished that I should have done years ago. When I'm not sober I will think of all the things I should be doing and dream of the world I want but never do a thing to get it. When I'm sober and I accomplish something I always think "That was easy! Why didn't I do that years ago?". It's because the alcohol and marijuana have me thinking I can't do it so I may as well not try. Well, I've been thinking about this for weeks now and summer is coming up. There are trips I want to take this summer and I need a clear mind to plan them out. I'm walking around with a cloudy mind that isn't really functioning like it should right now. I need to clear it and cleanse myself from all the toxins I've been putting in my body. I'm excited and ready. This is way overdue.