:day5 Florence!
I am glad you are here. I think you are showing great progress in your recovery.
I have found the use of positive affirmations done with mirrors helpful in reminding me that I am loveable.
Louise Hay teaches how to do these. I have one of her books "You Can Heal Your Life", and one of her positive affirmations is to repeat this statement:
Love is Everywhere.
I am loving.
I am loveable.
I know that for myself traditional holidays are not something I look forward to. A history of hoping for Norman Rockwell moments and a reality of tension filled moments have left me less than enthusiastic.
I have come to realize that the reason I shun traditional family celebrations is that I do not enjoy spending time, making merry, with the people who have brought pain into my life. And that's okay!
Sending you (((hugs))) and wishes for happiness within.