Ah, yes, Nands - 'the momentary freak out that could lead to a stupid decision to drink'. I do so get that!
I must say that - if I'm remembering your earlier posts on this thread properly - you really do sound like you're in a better place, within YOURSELF. Each day, each hour.... on we go, in real time, and real life, eh?!
I'm very glad you keep posting; some others who are clearly suffering with all manner of addiction and life matters suddenly disappear from SR (not that anyone's obliged to stay, of course)....and we often wonder, jeepers, is so-and-so OK? Or not? Nothing to be done, naturally. But it's still lovely to hear from fellow comrades.
XXX
Vic