Its been a while
I haven't posted here in months... I'm delighted to say that I'm on day 67 which is absolutely my longest stretch ever. With so much stopping and starting I truly believed I just would never make it. Going to AA was a huge step for me and eventually I've started to trust that I can really live a different life without drink. To any newcomer struggling I hope I can be an encouraging voice. I cried and drank and posted on SR over and over. It just wouldn't stick. I went to AA and still ended up drinking and denying and stopping and drinking again...
But now somehow I'm better, I'm recovering and I'm so grateful for this gift and the chance I've been given to be free, to live without the lying and sneaking and pretending....
Not once since I've stopped have my kids mentioned it. I think their silence speaks volumes, they know I'm different, happier, more together and I think they don't want to risk losing that by saying a single word!!