Old 02-06-2013, 06:10 PM
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Lenina
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Be myself,

The endless hall of mirrors for me was continued drinking. Making a Big Plan solved a lot of stuff for me because I committed to never drink and never change my mind. Do I want to drink? no. The Beast may attempt to rally from time to time but that does not mean I need to act on it. Drinking is not an option.

I hope someone who is a better writer than I comes along soon to help you through this. You made a very good call to come here. SR is great.

Is your addictive voice maybe batting you around between recovery methods and taking you hostage? AA and AVRT, SMART...does it get you confused?

Love from Lenina
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